Regardless of you thinking she sucks you should have kept this up for three reasons
1) We need an Alaska tan, and I can guarentee you 95 to 100% of us want yours. AS SHE IS, not a male one, not a better one just as she is.
2) We love you greatly and doing such things makes us worry and confuses us ALOT which leads to number 3
3) This thing? with the whole hating on yourself? Its getting old. Its not fun for any of us. We love you and we hate to see you upset. So believe us when we say we love you and don't hate yourself becuase its like calling us liars okay? Or stupid. Its frustrating and the ONLY annoying thing about you. I REPEAT the only annoying thing. We have rushed to your aid time and again, showed you we care and you sink back every time. Start loving yourself girl, or its only going to get worse. TRUST ME.
Yours always.
Anon
This Anon also agrees. <3 Love you, got it?
omg THANK YOU for stating this. Honestly, if I say its good I mean it, no lies. : / I dont understand how its so hard to believe people when they've been reinstating the truth a million times.
And yes, what is stated in No. 3 is the only thing that irks me. I am too worn and exasperated shelling advice that is not listened to. Anyways, to you, AK, I love your AK and she needs to be put back up, but please, please, please, take whats up there to heart. If you insist on knowing whats up, that is our answer. Stop assuming the worst of yourself because you are far better than you make yourself to be.
- C Stop it with the hate, girl. I know I've been a moody lady as of late, and I'm not the best example, but hear me out honey child: We love everything about you, AK. We love your character, your mind, your ideas, your personality, your sweet-heart that has always been there to help people out, everything.
We need your AK on here, and I think EVERYONE agrees they want your Alaska on here. You've INSPIRED people with your oc, and people are always ready to be by your side, ready to comfort and make everything better, cause they CARE like real friends do. Don't let one little bad THOUGHT(Not Fact) take over your mind, and yes, paranoia is a hard bitch to kick, I've been through it. Don't be afraid to speak up, but don't act like people are out to get you.
So what if one person says something, it's an opinion, WE ALL have them. And I know you want to pertain to everyone's best interest, but lets face it, not everyone is going to be pleased in the end, and tearing ourselves down for them is going to make people lose respect for us. And who cares what one person of fifty say. If you really feel that it's advice that should be taken( Not some dumb crap like making AK be male or boob size, you know better, your my smart girl <3), then take it and move on, don't dwell. If it's criticism, at least remember how we all used to laugh and be able to make fun of ourselves on the STP. We've been missing a few good laughs lately, including me. C:
And I want to be true and honest with you girl. What the anon says is true, the only time we started finding you annoying is when you began to hate everything about yourself. The ONE thing we don't like. People have tried to look past it, but now, it's too much. To reiterate: People will lose respect for you if you can't respect yourself. :C
This whole hate thing can really affect those around you, and it can even make people feel bad, as well as give off an image of attention seeker.
Take WY's pride and tell your paranoia and "hate crap" to shove it up it's candy-ass.
I know, you still probably don't think I should be talking, cause you know I usually want to vent and can be sensitive, but I've only now just realized this, and I'm sorry if my venting ever got you down or depressed. I really care about you AK, and I think everyone just wants to see you be happy.
Like my momma said in some quote I probably deleted: "I make you tough, because I want you to protect what I love about you." And that's EVERYTHING AK <3
From the desk of First Anon to post, of the order of "Never gonna give you up"
Remember my character has recived multiple complants from some of my friends who are catholic due to perceived flaws, though none of the comments on Deviant art. The thing is at first when I came to this group I didn't develope him, kept away from others so as not to step on any toes, I had never lived in him, and knew nothing about him. He was male where most of his counter parts were female. I was scared. For months my character was flat bland and unintresting.
It was only when I reliezed that My character was MINE to do with as I please, did I devlop him, and I dug deep. I found the most amazing character I hadn't even known about. now its your turn, stop worrying about others and find your alaska. Be pleased with yourself and her, and through your character learn to love yourself.
So it is written.
Anon
Alaska, I really hope you're reading this, because all these words of love and truths are things you NEED to know and pound into your sweet head~
Although I can't really add anything new to what everyone here has already said, I will say that it very much reminds me of a quote from Neon Genisis Evangelion: "You can't expect others to love you if you're unable to love yourself." I think that has some truth to it. Sure, we'll always love you no matter how much you hate yourself, but if you hate yourself, then everyone feels miserable. Like we're lying, or like you don't take our words to heart; as if just brushed off like nothing. But for some reason, it's like you care more about what trolls or neigh-sayers have to say, more than those who love you have to say. It's entirely backwards. I mean. I can understand having no confidence or no self-esteem, (I have zero in both categories) but it's another thing entirely to put the words of enemies over the words of loved ones. You're a smart girl, you should have faith in the decisions that YOU MADE FOR YOUR CHARACTER.
Even after reading all these words from your friends, if you still feel down, then fine- don't believe in yourself....BELIEVE IN THE US THAT BELIEVES IN YOU! NOW PIERCE THE HEAVENS WITH YOUR DRILL! (or boobs in this case, which is still an epic thing to do)
Also, if it helps any at all, I've gotten TONS OF CRITISISM FROM MY CHARACTER. Like. "Oh they would be okay for this part of the state, but they should look more like THIS part" or "She looks like a valley girl, she should be more sporty" or even "She looks like Poland" (Okay, I guess I'm not annon now XD But if I still am, then yay~
WE LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
~Anon (Oh wait, it tells ya who updates these parts. CRAP XD)
First Anon says:
(It only tells her if you are logged in.)
Having Zero confidence and low self esteem is one thing Fl. Letting it emotionally paralyize you and hurt you is quiet another.
I continue to support people who have in the hopes that one day they will look in the mirror and say "Hey, I am not so bad."
And MEAN it .
There is a differance between humbleness and low self esteem ,and a LOT of todays Socitiy has the latter parading as the first. Its alright to defer compliments to be polite, its alright to reconize your faults, but to write entire journals about "Why I suck" or to throw these kinds of fits, is indicitive of a need for more esteem. If you can't LOVE yourself even when you need to, there is an issue. No one can change your feelings on yourself, that comes with time. Trying tends to drain and hurt others badly but we do becuase as humans we care. When Ak finds it in herself to either love herself, then she will listen to us. Then we will see the true alaska. Until then
I will wait and watch.
I think this is enough. Really? I love you Alexis, but sometimes I just....worry. I've known you for a long time. And I just want you to be happy. I can see that all this arguing, editing, isn't doing anything. We're trying to help, but I don't think it's really doing anything. So I've reverted her page. I ask you, as a friend (or I hope you think of me as such, as I think of you as being my friend), please stop. You can talk to us. You can take us seriously. Because if we didn't like Aleu, we would say it to your face. Not beat around the bush saying nice things all the time. We love you and your character. We want neither of you to change. I've seen what you've put into her development since the first day I saw her on the State-tans tag. And if you feel as strongly towards her as I do to my own OC (sounds odd, I know) then you really don't want to do this. You don't hate her. You don't hate yourself. I don't think you're the type of person to actually feel that way. Please, listen to us. We're not trying to trick you, put you down. We like you. We love you. Can we all just stop?
You can talk to me anytime about anything. I won't speak of it and I won't hold it against you. You have my IM. I am online, even if you night not think I am. If it's not obvious by now, trace my IP and you'll (hopefully) know who it is.
Much love,
thank you